As I said in my funeral talk, my mom wasn't just a part of my life, she was a part of my day. Before she was sick I was with her at least 4 times a week and called her at least once a day. When she was sick I was there everyday. And now? I don't quite know what to do with myself. Josh is feeling the same. What do we do now? I miss her more than I ever imagined I would. It's a constant ache. Like a stomach ache mixed with nerves and anxiety. It's hard to explain.
So today Josh and I met up with some of our family and went to the mall for lunch and to ride the merry-go-round. We used to do this often with mom because it was a cheap way to entertain my kids.
Then we went to the cemetery. I think we stayed there for an hour. It was as if we were hanging out with mom.