Wednesday, April 30, 2008

Miracles Can Happen

aunt barb, aunt ruthellen, mom me, jane, mom

 This blog has become more personal than I ever thought I'd get but as I continue to document the happenings in my life I realize this is my journal, my only journal really, so I want to write how I feel today.

I don't know how I'll be feeling later today but I have had some tender moments in the last 48 hours.

Monday morning:  My mom was out of breath and has been for a few weeks, so my dad gave her a blessing and took her to InstaCare.  They believed she has pnemonea but found some masses in her lungs so they made an appointment to see a lung specialist.

Monday 5:00: My sister called to tell me that my mom had masses on her neck and under her arm too.  It didn't look good.  It was probably cancer from some other source that had spread to her lungs.  
I have never felt that way before and I hope to never feel it again.  My wonderful neighbors came and took my kids and I sat on the stairs and stared out the window.  Dinner was needing to be finished, the table was set for dinner, laundry needed to be folded, but time stopped.  My table is still set for Monday night's dinner and it is Wednesday morning.  Time has stopped.  My laundry list of things I need to get done has been put on hold.  My mom means everything to me.  She is the glue that holds my family together.  

Tuesday: She had the mass on her neck biopsy and we'll get the results this afternoon.
We had a family fast for her.  All who could, fasted for her.  We have an army of faith in our family and we are all praying for a miracle.  Miracles do happen and I know it is because of faith.
We gathered last night as a family to break our fast and pray together.  I wish I took pictures.  It was a tender moment to see all of us together, scared to death, but humbled.

I don't know what kind of news we will get today.  Hopefully good  news and this will just have been a learning experience (a short and painless learning experience) but I wanted to remember this.

Keep us in your prayers!!


Kami said...

I have been thinking about all of you since Monday! She will continue to be in our prayers. We love you guys. Miracles Can Happen!

Liz said...

Amanda I am so sorry. Please let me know if I can do anything.

Jenna said...

You and your family are in our prayers. Please let me know if there is anything I can do for you. I love ya and know that your family will be blessed because of your faith.

The Gatherum Family said...

You are in my thoughts. Words can't describe the scariness that you have been experiencing and my heart aches for you. Miracles can and do happen. If you need to talk or need someone to listen, I am here-I will be praying for you and your family today...Love, Adrian

Jen said...

Oh Amanda I'm so sad for you! You & your family are in my prayers. I hope for good news!

Lisa Cannon said...

I am so sorry to hear that your mom is sick. How did her test results turn out? I will keep her in my prayers.

Stacy said...

How scary! I hope everything turns out for the best. We'll keep your family in our prayers.

Debbie said...

Here is what I know about Eithel (your Mom)- she is a very strong, calm, wise woman. We will see those qualities now - no matter what she finds out.

Our family is right there with you all. Daisy

Becky, yep said...

Right. here. for. you!
I love your family dearly and will do anything you need me to do! Thanks for the update! please keep letting us know how she's doing!

We love you Cathy!

Staci said...

Amanda, so sorry to hear that. You always hear about things like that happening to other people but when it's family it hits so hard! I will for sure keep your mom and family in our prayers and pray for good news!

Kelli said...

I've been thinking about you, and I will keep your mom & family in my prayers. I'm only a phone call away if you need to talk. I hope to hear good news soon.

Logan and Ashley said...

We love you Amanda and have your mom and your family in our prayers. I hope everything is okay and know that with faith miracles can happen. I don't even know what to say... stay strong, pray often and lean on the Lord!! I love you!!!

Tina said...

Hope your mom is doing okay! You guys are in our prayers.

Great blog; it's nice to see what you and your family have been up to!

Take care, Ben and Tina Myers in Greeley (You can check out our blog @