We finally got a new desk for our computer but we are having some technical difficulties. We had a great Christmas. I missed home but had fun with just my little family. We did meet up with some new friends on Christmas Day. Many of us here are without our extended families so we all went over to the church and had Christmas dinner and let the kids show off their new toys. It was different but very fun.
As the new year approaches I am very reluctant to welcome it. This year has been quite a challenge for me and I am a little nervous of what 2009 has in store for me. I'd like to think that I deserve a "year off" but you never know.
And it is a new year without my mom. I miss her more and more each day. I think many people think it gets easier as time goes by.....it doesn't. The void she left in my life gets more noticeable by the day. With so many new exciting and scary adventures I miss the one person behind me, cheering me on. She made me feel that I could do and handle anything. If I had one more day with her, I would ask her this question, "What do I do when I miss you so much?"
Sometimes I wonder if she even knew how much we all would miss her. I think if she did, she wouldn't have been so willing to go. But she had such a strong testimony that I'm sure she knew we would all be okay.
As I felt a little sorry for myself on Christmas Eve, I tried to remember that Christmas isn't about me or having everything I want. It is about the birth of our Savior. I really took time to reflect on how my life has been blessed because of my Savior. I am so grateful for my testimony. This year more than any I felt that was the best gift I could ask for.
2008 wasn't the worst year, the hardest, but definitely not the worst.