She will have the tumor in her brain removed this Thursday by the Gamma Knife procedure. It should be simple and painless. She does have to have a cage of some sort screwed into her head but the doctors have assured her that she won't feel a thing. She'll be very relaxed and a little sedated. Easy for them to say. But really it is a blessing that we live in a time where technology and medicine have come a long way.
She will begin chemo on Sunday by taking 4 pills/day for 5 days and then wait 23 days to begin again. We are hoping this will shrink the tumors in her lungs because she still can't breathe. What a crummy way to live.
It's weird, when you find out someone you love has a life threatening disease, it's as if they have already been taken from you in a way. Nothing is normal. Our life as a family has been completely tipped upside down and now everything feels different. Mom is now sick; grandma is sick. Going to grandma's house is different.
She used to be the one that made me feel better when times got rough. Now I can't look to her for comfort because she is the one suffering. I have never prayed and fasted more meaningfully in my whole life, but that is where I draw my strength.
Brett has been wonderful. He lets me cry and he just holds me. He doesn't try to make it all better and he doesn't get tired of hearing how I feel. He cries with me.
I do see the tender mercies of our Heavenly Father in this terrible situation. He really is there. He knows me and He cries with me. He has given me many wonderful friends who truly have been instruments in His hands.
Thank you for all your support.